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Lessons from 26 and On Turning 27

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Oh, 26. What a year.

What a crazy, fun, stressful, empowering year.

As I type this, I'm less than an hour away from turning 27. And while my hopes and dreams for my 27th year of life probably mandate another blog post, I just cannot believe what a great year 26 was. Well if you call confusion and general lack of direction great. If you call stress, work pressure and isolation great. I know it's something of an annual tradition on my blog to recap the year gone by as my birthday rolls around, so here are a few lessons I learned at the incredible, humbling and wonderful year that was 26:

The Quarter-Life Crisis is now my best friend. When I was 25, I was incredibly stressed out wondering what direction my life should take. "What am I doing with my life?" has evolved into "I'm walking into the unknown every single day and I love it." Yes, of course I still don't know what I'm doing with my life, but Year 26 taught me that neither does anyone else. S…

The Importance of Doing Nothing.

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"People say nothing is impossible, but I do nothing all day." - Winnie the Pooh

So here's the thing. Very often, I have nothing to do. In today's hyper-paced world where no one seems to have time to even glance in the mirror, that seems strange. But thankfully, I'm at a point in my life where I have decent work-life balance (for now) and quite often, I find myself with adequate time on my hands. Of course, most of the time, I try to be productive and busy with creating something, but there are times when I just can't think of what to do. And honestly, I don't feel at all guilty for that.

I mean, a few hours spent watching Netflix and listening to music while drawing or writing something fun? That's my kind of day. But other times when I'm bored I just can't think of what to do. There are times when the laundry is all done, the house is clean and my homework is complete. There are times when I'm simply not inspired enough to write a blog pos…

Enough.

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I'm sitting at work, watching people do their jobs, excelling at it. Then I look at the work before me, and think about how mediocre I really am compared to them. If only I could be so efficient...

Next, I'm in a conversation with some acquaintances, listening to them talk about how successful they are at work, that new promotion, that once-in-a-lifetime vacation, that engagement, that new baby on the way...

Then I'm scrolling through my Instagram and I see people achieving their goals, writing books, publishing poems, taking incredible pictures and creating amazing works of art. And then I wonder, why am I not that talented? Why do I lack so much?

What is even the point of me trying anymore? There always seems to be someone better than me at nearly everything I can do...

I've written before that comparison is the thief of joy. In fact, I very often accept that comparing our life and abilities with others' is a giant waste of time and energy. It really is pointless an…

Overdrive

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You get into the driver's seat, fasten your seat belt and turn the key. The car starts moving, slowly at first, then takes over and before you know it, you're driving at 200 miles an hour. You realize that you're no longer in control...the car is moving at breakneck speed...you can't slow down...and you feel like this is it, this is the end...

Except that it's not a car. You didn't even move. It's your mind. Taking you on yet another trip that you don't know how it's going to end. This, friends, is what overthinking feels like. The loss of control...the helplessness...the hopelessness...

Almost all my life, I've struggled with anxious, invasive thoughts that seemingly appear out of nowhere and refuse to leave. I may not have anxiety in the general sense of the word, but I've always had to deal with obsessive thoughts that tend to overwhelm my senses. I've lost count of the number of times I've ended up overthinking the littlest of th…

People Change People.

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I'm not someone who actively seeks out social interactions. My close friends (all two of them) already know this about me. They also know that I'm not the kind of person who has patience for small talk, who never takes initiative in social settings, and who rarely sets up meetings and dates. Most people would call me antisocial. I disagree. I don't hate interactions. I avoid them. I guess that makes me 'unsocial', if anything. But then again, I never cared for labels.

In my quest to live a life of solitude, going out of my way to isolate myself and live life on my own terms, I've ended up meeting many more people than I planned to. No matter how much I try to escape social boundaries, newer and newer people keep entering my life, and as a result, I've never been truly alone. And I suppose that's not entirely bad.

Some of the people I've met have been around for maybe a few months, maybe a year. Some people  have stuck with me for years together, onl…

Movie Review: Incredibles 2 (2018)

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A lot has changed in the fourteen years since Pixar released what many (me included) consider their absolute best film, The Incredibles. Back in 2004, superhero movies were few and far between, with just a few names like Spider-Man holding up the genre. Of course, with today's glut of superhero movies (an average of six or seven a year), there is no denying the mass market appeal of movies like The Avengers and Black Panther. Having said that, back in 2004, computer animation itself was just beginning to blossom into something, pun intended, incredible. The Incredibles was only the sixth film released by Disney and Pixar, and back then was a striking commentary on family dynamics, government, politics, and retro culture.

Back then, Pixar wasn't in the business of producing sequels for box office profits. Brad Bird, director of the original Incredibles, stated that he would only make a sequel if the story was good enough. Well, it seems that a fourteen year gap has certainly h…

Change Scares Me.

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